Sunday, January 20, 2008

Just An Ambulance Driver

JUST an ambulance driver..
standing in chest deep water,freezing rain falling and stinging as it hits the
exposed parts of my body. Holding her head above water to keep her from drowning until rescue could get there to cut her free---
BUT I'M JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

comforting a 89 year old woman who just watch me and my partner cover the face of her husband of 64 years as he lay dead in their bathroom floor---
BUT I'M JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

on scene at an mva with mom trapped upside down in her car and her dead sons body laying on top of her without a second thought for my own safety I crawl into the wreckage to take C-spine control and calm the frantic lady---
BUT I'M JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

called away from my just prepared meal to respond to the middle of B.F.E to a house with no numbers,no porch light on,nobody waiting to signal us in and they bitch because we took too long only to find out the patient left P.O.V ten minutes ago...so we smile and walk away from the verbal lashing only because we are
JUST AMBULANCE DRIVERS

standing in the middle of the street at midnight on the wrong side of town trying to patch the holes and stop the bleeding of a 19 year old shooting victim with the occasional bullet whizzing past our heads we never break stride because this kids life is in our hands---
BUT I'M JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

doing chest compressions on a 16 year old girl who decided this life was more than she could take.Her family screaming at us to help as though we are the ones who did this to her.Her lifeless body flailing about as the tube goes in and IV's being started, my arms and back burning from the pain of 30 minutes of CPR never once giving up, hoping she would make it through and over come whatever lead her to this bad decision----
BUT I'M JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

death is all around me and still I go home to live my life
I get kicked,hit,spit on, bled on, puked on...
I look into the eyes of a lifeless child at 7am and by 8 am I'm holding my child a little tighter and they know nothing about what happened.
I have hundreds of hours of classroom time
years of in the field experience
I have challenged death and won
I've helped the helpless
I've neglected my family for yours
I find comfort in complete chaos
I eat cold meals if I eat at all
I work with no sleep for days at a time
I miss birthdays,holidays and school functions
I put myself in harms way for a total stranger on a daily basis

ALL BECAUSE I AM JUST AN AMBULANCE DRIVER

I AM AN AMBULANCE DRIVER!!! I DRIVE 90 MPH THROUGH CONGESTED TRAFFIC FULL OF PEOPLE WHO REFUSE TO YIELD RIGHT OF WAY WHILE MY PARTNER STANDS UNRESTRAINED IN THE BACK OF THIS SCREAMING LAND MISSILE SAVING YOUR LOVED ONES LIFE!! NEVER ONCE DOES HE QUESTION MY DRIVING BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT AT THE END OF THIS SHIFT HE WILL GO HOME TO HIS FAMILY SAFELY BECAUSE I AM AN AMBULANCE DRIVER.

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

Denise & all other Paramedics out there - it is so unfortunate that this blog has no comments left to it. i feel of all blogs out there, this would be the one that would spark the most comments to it.

that being said, i have to say that for me, i understand that your job is more than just the ambulance driver. i have only been in an ambulance three times in my life time and never once did i feel like i had the right to yell at the driver for their driving.

i have always been grateful to everyone there because i knew you had one of the toughest jobs around. because of that, you all deserve the utmost respect.

i do have to admit i had no idea of the differences between an EMT and Paramedic. i have had a friend who is educating me and actually brought me to your blog. i am very thankful to him.

so ~~~ STEPPING ONTO SOAPBOX ~~~

i am saying right now that i am thankful to you all for your skills at driving, taking care of dieing and injured patients, helping heal the emotional break down of family members who have just lost a love one, making sure people who are alone feel the company you bring, making all the personal sacrifices that you have to make to do your job, somehow finding away to put the images behind you of what you have just seen - heard - felt - and witnessed, and TONS more that people have no idea you do for them behind the scenes.

for me, like i said, i didn't know the difference and i am sorry for my ignorance.

i hope others will decide to sound off and give their thanks to someone who is quite special and gifted in spirit to handle one of the toughest jobs.

WITH ALL MY THANKS!!!!!!!

Annette K. - Keller, TX

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